Glass Window...
Haiz...today... while i was on the bus on the way home...Xin Ying was wif me...we were talking about things related to us...and i sat Beside her...Yes... i noe... beside...lols... didn noe what the big deal is...well... i only got a few minutes to write this but...i'll just write...well...i was thinking if i was even recognised in the class...seems like im one of them, who most of the time, is being left out...i still remember last year when we were making our gay class tee...my name wasn't there...i really dont noe why i want to bring this up...but its something that popped up in mind when Xin Ying got of the bus...i was thinking if maybe i was too obsessed wif PDP that i didn spend enough time wif the class...everytime last year... i was the first one to dash out of the class up all the way to the PDP room...well i was quiet in my class too...so... i guess the class didn quite noticed i was there...its quite pitiful that this happened to me...i always had lots of attention during Pri sch...Even if i didn have attention during Pri sch...i feel that its enough...well... i never noe why this starts happening to me during Secondary sch life...well... even my class chair man doesn't trust me much to do a gd job...well i cant blame him for me being clumsy...i always wanted to be a part of my class...but i only have a few more months b4 we split..i want all of us to go to the same class next year but...i guess i cant force some of them to chose the same class as me...haiz...im always bothered by these stuff...at least My PDP friends know im here...haiz...i just hope i could be remembered in most of my classmate...at least half the class...Haiz... haiz... haiz...I dunno what to do!!!At least Cassandra still treats me like a friend...but she always keeps trowing me at someone else...well... i guess i should be happy she doesnt ignore me...in fact... i should be totally high!well u still my friend right???haha lols... of course u r...U r always my Best friend!!!Haha lols...i should be greatful i always have good stuff in the end of everything bad...well... i guess this phrase frm Siew chin really is true...it goes like this... but it doesnt really feel right but i like it...i feel that it means the way we think..."前方是死路, 转角就有希望"Translation: even though theres a dead end infront of u but just take a turn and there will be hope...
Basement Dunno Wat!!
well...
today i didn bring money for buying stuff frm the army shop...
soo... i asked ben if he could buy 4 me...
he said he has no money...
now...
i dunno if he bought for me...
sian larh...
must buy everything alone...
but i dont mind...
more freedom at least...
well...
i just thought of something...
why do i always feel depressed when people say stuff like "u suck"...
and i dont feel more sad when something major happens...
for example: Mr Blah died... he is my uncle...
i didn cry at his funeral...
nor did i even feel sad...
i had no feeling at all...
maybe a little sad n stuff like that...
and if it were something like when someone says "u suck"...
i would start kicking the lift doors...
imagine how i wished i had super powers n zapped him to death...
its just soo illogical...
its supposed to b a small thing and i feel soo sad...
and when someone dies i just feel less affected...
i really dunno whats wrong wif me...
i really wanna noe...
serious... anyone got the same symptoms???
anyone can help me?
Small stuff hurt me greatly...
big stuff doesn't hurt me at all...
after awhile later...
small stuff will b forgotten very soon...
and the big stuff will hunt me very soon...
i really feel soo sian...
in the end... im hurt by both events...
SIAN AR!!! Y IN THE WORLD IS MY EQ SOO SUPER, BLOODY, DAMN LOW!!!
Its at Basement dunno WAT!!!
New skin again
Lols...
i keep changing skin...
im looking for this sort of skin but i finally found one that i like...
maybe i'll stick wif this longer than the rest...
its nice...
its a pic of my "new" classroom...
im quite fine wif my new classroom thou...
its just that i dont like moving here n there...
i rather stay at 4B till the end of the year...
its soo si bei sian if i have to move back again...
haiz... 2morrow have bb again...
si bei si bei si bei sian ar!!!
i don wan go! i wan go c reuben!!!
URGH!!!
gtg... my sis chasing me away... (again)
T.C.!!!
Kappo day 1...
Haiz...
i guess the only fun thing i did was listen to songs...
lols... too sian already...
no one online to chat wif me...
i guess i would do my homework and go to sleep early...
BUH BYE!!!
Call me kap po... My full name is loo kap po...
lols... my new name...
kap po means frog...
kap po sounds nice...
i love this name...
haiz...
im not sure if anyone wants to go to the exhibition on sat...
i rather go alone so as to not disapoint them...
should i cancel this event???someone... pls tell me if i should or shouldn't cancel it???
i really regret doing this right now...
its a sat n people have no time?!!
i really dont understand what they do every sat...
y soo busy???i dont even have anything to do on sat n suns...
i think our lives are different...
no one is the same...haiz...
now playing Viwawa wif Xin Yi...
then play wif some gays from dunno which sch...
then got one pro called wawachin...
pro xia... got more attacks than me...
well... im still a super noob...
hee hee level 1...
OH YA!!!
got one stupid bai ka make our class move up to the 4th floor!!!
URGH!!! 4th floor again... ever since i was primary 2 i went up to the 4th and above...
finally in sec 1 i can go to the 2nd floor...
then sec 2 can go 1st floor...
now!!! after we did something to the wall...
they make us move...
y don wan move 1A, 1B...
SIANZ!!!
now have to suffer for the extra term or more in class 4B...
i rather we move up and stay there...
soo sian we have to move up...
and down...
and up...
and down...
and up...
and down...
then can go home...
7 times up and down leh...everyday!!!well i cant help it anws...
just venting my sian-ness...
no offence...
haha...
lets just have a gd laugh...
Breaking down in 5,4,3,2,1... Zzz...
im soo tired now...
anytime later while posting, if i write some mean stuff...
im just very tired...
well today...
i woke up super late n got to go to tm to take 69...
i saw van, tabitha...
they didn notice me i think...
well... only joseph saw me as he came up the bus at his house...
didn noe why but i saw joshua walking away from the bus towards sch instead...
i have a feeling he was walking to school...
i just stared at him without anyone noticing...
all the way until i lost sight of him...
the first person i said hi to was joseph...
i think 2nd was tabitah... at the library... during recess...
i think that was all the people i said hi in sch
the others i said hi on msn...
well i borrowed 2 garfield books to read during lessons...
comics...
during recess...
roc n me just roamed within the school...
went to library to enjoy air-con...
during eng...
we watched some jap show...
i almost slept...
im real tired...
these are some of the stuff i did of on the bus on my way home...
firstly... i plugged my earpiece on my ear...
on-ed break free...
then crush...
and the rest are all chinese...
today at home...
i was moaning about why some PDP students dont wanna go c reuben n shirlinda...
even shawn wants to come...
n he has been in pdp sor how long??? Ans: 1-2months...
i dont noe the reason why he wanted to come but he replied me the fastest...
followed by Eleanor...
who cant come...
some wanna come but no time... these people not coming...
some lazy to come but can come... these people not coming...
some lazy to come but still come... these people are coming...
some wanna come and got time... these people definately will be coming...
soo far...
only 3 people said yes...
Me, Shawn and Cassandra...
as for XinYing... she is still pending a request frm her mom if she can come...
i feel soo depressed that i wasted soo many smses because only a handful of them replied...
maybe... im gonna go into suicidal if they continue to ignore me...
well... im just very tired n i just need to complain abou them...
maybe... i'll just stick to a few people that wants to come...
they are making me hate organising stuff like that...
but it takes only one word from
Reuben that made me gain back my confidence...
THANK YOU REUBEN!!!
I'll NEVER FORGET THE WORDS YOU SAID TO ME...
U R THE BEST!!!
this goes to Hwee Jing... thank u too... although u didn say anything... i just read the sms u send me earlier the month... even the slightest of the smallest words can cheerup...
Thank u too i am really greatful that i have a friend like u...
After an insane night...
well...
after yesterday...
im feeling quite better now...
i just followed what she said just for fun...
well today was sian...
i just had my science common test...
i got back my history common test...
haha... 10/20!!!
at least i passed...
im soo gonna work harder...
my science will pass...
that is all im confident of...
maths... OH SHIT!!!
this time im afraid i will flunk this...
i didn pay much attention in class n i got many wrongs in my mock test...
DBS lah...
worst i ever get...
i'm thinking of not going to A maths class next year but i want pure sciences...
soo sad lah...
i m aiming for 3H!!!
3H!!! 3H!!! 3H!!!
lols...
im gonna play cube than work hard for maths later tonight...
gonna sleep late again...
soo sad...
at least can c my bao bei in bus...
i'm starting to feel disgusted by my bao bei here... bao bei there...
im gonna write their names from now onwards...
haiz... i've been sitting the 7 o'clock bus lately...
soo tired i cant wake up...
well... gtg train for cube n maths!!!
i guess my aunt is back...
bye!!!
Sand
im posting again cause...
i just want to say this to everyone...
GD LUCK 4 UR COMMON TEST!!!pls dont flunk it...its retardedly easy so far...our teachers taught us well...if u listen to their lessons, u are sure to pass...
i just realised this a few days ago...
everyone...
being in springfield express stream isn't hard...
it is very easy...
if u can't even handle this standard of studies...
i really feel that everyone should listen to the teacher...
just listen n pay attention...
after hearing what the china students had to go pass in their studies in china...
i feel that we are simply... taking things for granted...
seriously... we should start to work hard...
definitely... we will really score well...
i am really out of my mind right now...
but i don't care...
i noe very little people will be reading this...
i dont know what the rest of u r ever gonna do but...
for me... i think that springfield express is other school's normal...
n other school's normal have the same standard as spf express class...
for me... i rather study hard n top the other school's normal STANDARD...
IM REALLY OUTTA MY MIND...IM NOT FEELING WELL..I FEEL SOO... SOO... NEGETIVE YET ENCOURAGING...I FEEL THAT I'M NOT SUPPOSED TO SAY ANYTHING BUT EVERYTHING JUST BLURTED OUTTA MY FINGERS...IM SERIOUSLY WRITTING WITHOUT THINKING...I JUST KEEP WRITTING...I FEEL LIKE SHOUTING...I FEEL SOO DOWN...LOADS OF THINGS ARE HAPPENING TO ME...I FEEL LIKE HAVE A BURDEN...SUDDENLY... A WHOLE LOAD OF DUNNO WHAT THING IS HAPPENING TO ME NOW...I M ALWAYS LIKE THAT AFTER HAVING ALONE TIME WIF MYSELF FOR A TOO LONG HOUR...BUT I LIKE BEING ALONE...URGH!!!!!!!!!!!I JUST WANNA LIE DOWN...DAY DREAM...FORGET EVERYTHING...N JUST THINK ABOUT ALL THE FRIENDS I HAVE...EVERY... SINGLE... ONE OF U...I WILL NOT MISS OUT ANYONE OF U...EVEN THOSE I DON'T LIKE, HATE, OR WE HAVE NEVER TALKED AT ALL...I JUST WANT TO DO THAT... JUST FOR DAY...ALONE...OR MAYBE WIF MY BAO BEIS...JUST THE FEW OF US...AT THE BEACH...STARING AT THE SEA...ALL QUIET...MAYBE A LITTLE BIT OF SONGS...AND A SUPER BIG GULP...FILLED WITH MOSTLY COKE...WAH... SOO SHIOK AR...THIS WILL BE MY DREAM SITUATION I WOULD LIKE TO HAVE EVERYTIME SOMETHING HAPPENS TO ME...I TELL U... AFTER ALL THAT RELAXING...I'LL REALLY FORGET ALL THE TRUBLES, BURDENS, AND ALL SORTS OF STUFF...ITS REALLY THAT SIMPLE...THAT IS ALL I WANT...BEST IF I CAN GET ROLLER BLADES OR BIKES...SO THAT I CAN GET HOME EARLIER...BUT I THINK ALL THAT DREAMING WOULD B USELESS CAUSE IM NOT SUPPOSED TO BE OUTSIDE WONDERING AROUND...IF I REALLY CAN GET OUT...MY BAO BEIS MIGHT NOT WANT TO GET OUT OF THEIR HOUSE...OR THEY CAN'T GET OUT OF THEIR HOUSE BECAUSE OF THEIR PARENTS...U GUYS NOW NOE WHERE I LOVE TO GO RIGHT???ITS THE BEACH...WELL...I GUESS... I NOE SOMEONE WHO MADE ME DO IT ONCE N I JUST FELT COMPLETELY IMMOBILISED... I DIDN'T WANT TO MOVE AT ALL...THAT TIME...WE WENT TO THE BEACH TO RIDE BICYCLE...IT WAS A PDP OUTING...SHAWN, HUI JING, XIN YING, MICHELLE N ME...THE FIVE OF US... NO ACTUALLY SHAWN N ME ONLY...WE JUST SAT THERE N WE DIDN'T MOVE...THE GIRLS WENT TO PLAY WIF THE SAND...THAT WAS THE FIRST TIME I SAT ON THE GRASS N STARED BLANKLY...how i wish i can do it again...but... PDP closed...i dont think i can ever do it again...that feeling would never come back to me unless my bao bei's mum would ever let her out...actually the best would b just 4 people...me, XinYing, Eleanor and lastly, Cassandra...these three girls are so far my bestest of best friends...i love them... each n every one of them...well...i am done insaneingfor today...i totally lost myself...im just like sand on the road waiting to b blown away...
Uncle's B-dae...
Lols... just got informed that its my uncle's b-dae...
wows... 3 weeks in a row... 4 people...
first is my Granddad...
second is my Auntie...
THIRD is CASSANDRA...
fourth is my uncle...
lols...
i had noo idea y i did that...
dont ask me...
if u did...
i will...
ACT BLUR!!!
Muah hahahahahaha!!!
lols...
i did my history n geog paper...
i only got one question i dunno how to do...
its the...
Q6 (or something like that):what causes the fertilised land to decrease?
now thats a chim question i dunno how to do...
well 2morrow is my science paper...
i really need to study now...
cya...
i next time onwards will post like that liao...
must get prepared...
Yesterday
well yesterday... class was as usual...
no diff...
just that its common test...
lols...
Shh...
im gonna tell u a secret...
the only way to c this secret is to high light it...
i hope u noe how to do it...
well it goes like this...
Well... i just noe it was the common test this mon...
when the common test started this tues...
n i didn tell my mom about it...
For my sis: DONT TELL HOR!!!
haiz...
well back to my yesterday life...
i went to 201 to do the bb blow pipe thing...
but the guys wanted to play basketball after working on the blowpipe...
well i just followed...
but i didn play...
i just went to c the girls, CQ n roc play truth or dare...
it was mostly dare...
lols...
roc went all around the basket shouting "i'm a frog!!! i'm a frog!!!"
lols...
well...
XinYi went home first...
followed by Yiren, ben, me...
then i dunno who? who? n who?
tell u something else...
we didn do anything in the end...
lols... next post would b about 2dae...
Back to normal...
well ya... i wanna start wif Monday...
cause its Cassandra's Birthday!!! 2MORROW!!!
lols...
but its true...
well ya... i gave her a present...
wanna c???
ok i'll show u em...
haha lols... i gave her the one on the left n the one on the right is 4 myself.. cool right... but... i helped Xin Ying buy one... its below...
A Necklace... very nice one...
i forget to take photo...
soo forget about taking a look at it except on...
Cassandra's neck!!!
it's still counted i buy 4 Cassandra ok? Xin Ying... cause u haven pay me YET!!!
Muah hahahahaha!!!
lols... thats wad i bought...
i bought the 2 mummies frm minitoons...
n the necklace frm one shop in the EXCLUSIVELY HERS in the century square...
nice right...
jealous right???
hmph... wont buy 4 U!!! Muah hahahahaha!!!
lols... after i went shopping i went home n peeled hard boiled quial egg shells!!! Woohoo!!!
lols... this one i took a few pics 4 fun...
lols... im going nuts... im actually taking picture of EGGS!!! WTH!!!
oh yeah... long egg shell... lols... soo random...
these are most of the eggs i peeled...
i ate quite a few cause it was "imperfect"
haha lols... i just love to peel eggs when no one's looking!!!
lols... i Was nuts...
now im not...
well thats on mon...
im gonna giv cass the present 2morrow!!!
Happy national day...
well... today is national day...im writing big big cause i happy...to dae i got new hair style!!!woo hoo....lols...i actually want to write big big to use more space...im running out of stuff to write ALREADY...lols...Nah...i just wanna tok about my hair... but it looks exactly like my buddy's hair only besides the back...soo sian xia... later kenar whack by him...lols...i guess thats all...gonna say bye to my bao bei sis on msn n get ready for bb 2morrow...lols... cant believe i would call her like that on my blog n live to still tok to her...
The Gd stuff thats gd 4 me...
Well there are only 2 gd news...
one is that i actually was influencing a group of friends to do somthing...
first was cubes... which was last year...
n now was blogging...
i didn no if its really me who made them blog...
but they sure did it after i did mine...
the second one is that i will b performing 2morrow!!!
finally...
its not really a gd news... but its news...
any news is a gd news except 4 bad news...
im soo EMO right now... fell like sleeping since my BAO BEIS all offline le...
no body to complain...
i just feel like daydreaming for the whole 2morrow...
nobody ever sees me dae dream...
i never dae dream so obviously when people are around but i still do...
i guess its just a habit i got...
TO My Bao BeiS: HI
Down, Down, To the dumps...
Worst dae of the year...
my class made 3 teachers pissed off yesterdae...
first is my science teacher...
second is my geog teacher...
lastly my maths teacher...
i'll tok about it one by one starting wif science...
for science...
ms teo was teaching a very boring n chim science lesson about electricity...
yesterdae all i did was copy her answers n it was nothing wrong...
compared wif those who didn't even bother to copy...
all we did was say things such as...
1: Even if u teach we will still not understand...
2: Don't teach this this topic liao lah... just tell us the main points...
3: we cannot understand anything that u teach anws...
4: Yah lor... Yah lor... Yah lor...
5: Yar lor... Yah lor...
there might b some more hurting ones but i didn hear any...
im not gonna name whoever said those stuff but many people said it...
she just walked off wif 15 mins left...
we started blaming each other as in "ALL UR FAULT LAH..."
"U SAID THAT" "I DIDN't SAY ANYTHING"
n stuff like that in quite a light hearted manner...
2dae she said something like... "Yesterdae u bully me 2dae i bully u!!! HAHAHA! 3 POP-QUIZ!"
but in the end...
she just teach teach n teach...
i noe how she feels like... to b ignored by about half the class...
but i just didn do anything about it at all...
didn noe wad to do n i just copied, copied n copied...
For geog lesson...
quite weird but i can understand...
we were late for her lesson by about 10 mins...
her lesson was gonna b cut off by another 10mins becos of assembly...
many of her lessons were either short like that or it was a holidae...
we misssed many of her lessons...
i think this is the reason y she was pissed off...
maths lesson... the one which made the most impact...
but i cant blame anyone...
i was a part of it too...
everyone in class was a part of it...
its just that it was a bit by bit being added up n in the end...
it was ignited by one big blow...
she totally didn want to care about us anymore...
i guess it was too much 4 her...
most of us cried...
but there was ONE particular person i really want to Beat up...
DANIEL KWANG WEE TECK!!!
HE IS TOTALLY UN-SENSETIVE AT ALL!!!
EVERYBODY IS CRYING N SAD BUT HE STILL MAKES JOKES OUTTA IT!!!
HE IS A BLOODY LOSER!!!
EVEN CQ WANTS TO BEAT HIM UP!!!
HAiz... he has no hope...
well thats all about the bad news... gd news coming soon... but its way lesser...
IF there was a dae someone asks me which year i would wish i died in...
it would be 2007 B4 National dae...
becos all my trubles starts then...
HAHA!!!
lols...
new blog...
never gonna tok about anyone at all...
maybe praises... but try not to...
later offend people...
wells... 2dae 姨妈 b-dae... (姨妈 is Auntie in chinese...)
went to pasir ris community center eat...
food veri delicious... er... savory... exquisite... flavourful...
c... big words!!!
i veri smart de...
haiz... the soup the best...
its green apple soup... (direct translation from chinese)
it doesn't taste like apple... maybe abit but...
it taste more like campbell soup!!!
then we ate many more stuff...
last thing we ate was something bitter...
looks like tau hui but the colour of grass jelly...
got add honey but i think not enough...
still a bit bitter...
i was the only one who ate finish...
the last few scoops were the best cause of all the honey!!!
WOW!!! SOO SUpER... SI BEI!!! SWeet ar!!!
well then cME BACK N write this thing while listening to REACH OUT FOR THE SKIES!!!
my class is gonna sing n dance this song on this fri!!!
well... not the whole class thou...
such a pity...
last song i'll listen 2nite is...
TAKE A BOW!!! sung by rihanna...
